It's hard to believe 2010 is here. It's hard to believe it has been 1 year since the day I re-committed my life to my God. 1 year since I made my first ever resolution. One that involved changing just about everything that I knew in my life at that point. Long term friends, job, my relationship with my husband. But most importantly, my relationship with the Lord. You see, I was in a deep, dark, pit that I had fallen into and didn't know how to even begin to crawl out of. I had a dark cloud that had been hovering over me for months. The sad thing is, I have known God pretty much my whole life. I asked him to be my Saviour when I was 3 years old and I have known Him ever since. Why then, would someone who had such a history of their Lord and Saviour literally saving them time and time again, find themselves lost in a deep, dark, pit? Like any sin, addiction, shortcoming, it starts small. One drink, one cigarette, one thought... The next thing you know, it has been months and your "one" thing has turned into a series of things and you don't know how to stop.
Maybe that's why so many people look at Christianity from the outside and think it looks too hard to try. Some people tend to give off a holier-than-thou attitude while all the while drowning in their own sin. My thing my whole life was I didn't want to be a hypocrite or a Pharisee. So I would try and try to do it on my own, and then I would just give up completely for awhile. Then God would pick me back up and dust me off and love me in that unconditional way that only a Daddy can do. And He keeps loving me today. Even with all the baggage that I bring with me. I'm so thankful that the God I serve is not impressed when I sing good at church on Sunday or if I read my Bible on Monday. The God I serve loves me no matter what. As a matter of fact there is absolutely nothing I can do to make Him stop loving me. Even if I tried.
"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?"
"For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:35, 38-39
My resolution this year? To continue on the path to a better me. One that allows for mess-ups along the way. And one that allows for forgiveness. Forgiveness for myself and for others. Starting with the ones right here in my home.
What has been your experience with God? Have you seen Him as a loving Daddy? An unloving judge in the sky? Did you make any resolutions this year?