Sunday, December 5, 2010

A New...Old Idea

I ran into an old friend tonight. We started having a conversation that fondly reminded me of days gone by. Days sitting around in Denny's in the middle of the night with my brother and friends, having grandiose conversations about life and dreams. My conversation tonight begged the question, where have those dreams gone? Not necessarily the grandiose dreams, just the dreams of coming into my own...of living. Really living. Am I doing that now? It seems so remarkably easy to go through life day after day barely even thinking about my next move. It's as if I really am a pawn in someone else's game.

Funny how a conversation with an old friend, an old cd playing in my car stereo, a moment to myself, can all equate a new take on life. I'm grateful for the interruption. God forbid I keep going blindly in this life. Tired of being the pawn. I'm ready to be the Queen again. I'm making my way across the board to be crowned Queen again. Just not blindly this time.

It's really true you can please some of the people some of the time, but not all of the people all the time. So why are any of us still trying? No matter what we do, one person may like it but another one hate it. It's time to stop living for everyone else and start becoming the person we are proud to be. Get back to your roots, so to speak. It's so invigorating to start from scratch. And the best part is, it's never too late.

2 comments:

  1. I was having these same thoughts just the other day and have been yearning to slow down so I can savor this time in my life when I'm young and my kids are still fun and sweet. I need a slow motion button for my life!

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  2. Um, this is Angie, not Matt. :-)

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